I\'m sorry for my insecurities and driving you insane. I\'m sorry for believing your love for me has always been in vain. I\'m sorry I get so stuck on thinking you look at me with disgust, because I view myself as not as pretty as you desire me to be and my big ass and gut making me feel ugly and worthless, shrouding both of us in shame. I\'ve come to realize my fears, distraught anguish and pain is pushing you away all the same. I do not know how to get past these surfaces because my love for you runs so deep. I\'m a fool lost in an abyss of senseless worry and a head full of your games. I love you like a woman lost and clueless on how to regain the love that was never lost just my heart scared to death I\'ll lose you, my eternal flame. Please forgive me even if there\'s no chance for us I\'ll always love you and regret I couldn\'t be as strong as I proclaim.