HannahElisabeth

I\'ve already been;

Some people will only ever see us as victims;

 

They\'re not the ones

Who pull you out of bed when your world shatters

Off the cold hard floor when your knees fail

And the air is taken from your lungs

 

Carrying the weight of a heart too big

Survivor\'s guilt as you stand

Mourning another grave of a friend

 

Friend of a friend

Another one gone and you can\'t do a thing

But stay on the phone and share the weight of the grief

 

Walking with ghosts still waiting to be claimed

Debts unpaid just to find some relief

Looking for answers

At bottoms of bottles

And cutting lines

In skin

Or white powder

 

When shooting up is the only time life is euphoric

And all of your friends

We\'re just waiting for it 

You know

That phone call

The one where they\'re saying

He flatlined

We tried

But we couldn\'t save him 

 

Surrounded by pain

But you make it out alive 

Praying to a god you don\'t believe in

The others survive

 

When the person you loved

More than life itself 

Turns into the reason

You\'re saving yourself

 

When you\'re pleading in court 

With an absolute stranger 

To grant some protection

To keep you from danger 

 

When consent doesn\'t matter,

Just the response to 

\"But did he hit you...?\"

 

When the family you know 

Isn\'t the one you were born with 

When they catch your fall 

You still feel that absence

 

Tell me

I\'m going to hell

For what I believe in 

I can assure you

I\'ve already been;