My heart\'s soaking in vague remembrance
The concrete joy we felt remembering that world
Young lust cutting flowers, a decade of longing
I\'ve waited a lifetime for this moment, patiently waiting
I sit like a rare emerald, drinking until I can\'t feel
So numb you could cut my skin and I wouldn\'t respond
I hear moths in spirals trying to understand
Making a living but trying to get away and escape
The mind is a heaven, and the mind\'s a hell
Some distant land of quantum physics I never learned
Loud voices reminding me I do care
The river runs deep, but I\'ve never learned how to speak
I tried to open up my veins and prayed the pain would cease
Why things happened and I took things personally
But I would spare you from this syndication
Treasure your skin and walk through doors of light
Understand I\'m happy and dying
Why can\'t we talk and resolve this bitterness?
I know I say I don\'t care, but you know deep down I do
Purple like every bruise, I want everyone to be happy
But life\'s not fun like it used to be in the past
My smiling flesh has developed a new appetite for the weird
Bored and sad but it\'s okay
I like people when they\'re not talking
People in history who don\'t know why the sky is blue
Death is quiet, and you want attention without compromising
I play the piano different and it\'s not what you expected
Blinking eyes and mouths blowing kisses
Mouths blowing kisses.