So you think that you are
A better parent than me
Like you could magically fill the void
Of all our girl’s needs
With all the holes in your own life
That you can’t even break free
Well that’s a shame because I know
That’s what you really believe
And you still wonder why I disregard
All of your texts
Why I refuse to call or write you back
When you show no respect
I get it, trust me, I know you well
You think you’re perfect
And I’m a stagnant nobody, right?
Ain’t I correct?
I remember quite well
All the words that you said
Who the person you turned into
And the lies that you spread
While I believe that you believe them
You ain’t right in the head
But that’s all in the past
And I just chose to forgive
Although I know you won’t say sorry
For you have too much pride
You’ve got so many fabrications
All you see is your lies
It is your way or nothing
You feel you can’t be denied
But you couldn’t get your way
And what was left was divide
Your mind still can’t comprehend
Why you can’t get your way
Manipulation off the charts
It’s all you’ll ever portray
If you recall I made a plea to you
The very first day
To just separate with grace
But you just chose to decay
All in your mindset
That it was in the best interest
So you chose to wage a war
Against a man of forgiveness
And I forgive and I’ll forget
And I still try not to grimace
That this absurdity was real
And I was baring a witness
Did you honestly think
I’d walk away from my kids
Did you honestly think another man
Could fill the love that I give
Your mind is so far out of context
It’s like heaven forbid
Imagine if our daughters knew
All that you’ve hid
I hope they never do
But at least we’re finally divorced
And I can finally get some healing
From the abuse and coerce
Sometimes it doesn’t seem real
Like a novel of sorts
But I’m so thankful for this change
To walk anew, hopeful course
Who knew I could feel more life
Just watching us die
And that thought is so astounding
Yet it is truth realized
But I’m over it, this torment
I no longer have to comply
Don’t have to sacrifice my life
Just to keep us alive
Because I realize it all now
How fake it all was
And I realize, in my life
How much damage you’ve caused
How you manipulate the world
And conjure the flaws
So you can justify your actions
Without giving a pause
So go be the monster
You have chosen to be
Go leave a path of destruction
Wherever you put your feet
You actually thought that you
Had control over me
No matter how hard you fight
Just know, I’ll always be free
I’ll walk these streets
And I’ll find a new path
One of love and beauty
And not devoured in wrath
I appreciate life more
Because my life has come back
Learning and growing
From the mistakes of the past
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