I dip into moon pools, pleasure flowing
Through my body like a drug in the vein
You come back home drunk again
This is why I resent your false promises
Those flickering empty words
There\'s never a grace period, no silent kid in this mirror
No full stop when the sentence is over
Just a blank stare, an optical illusion in your web
Eating tiramisu like I\'m Pegasus
I\'ve gotten good at shutting people out of my life
But worse at missing them, the little things
The person I believed and hoped you would grow
Like a blade of grass in radiant sunshine
Killing myself slowly just to pass the time
I look at the moon and feel more lonely than a cave
There is no bottom to my mind, just a hole I\'m falling deeper in
A hole I\'m filling
So deep I can\'t wake from this colossal dream
The pain, that\'s real
A cloud in my eyes, no warm embrace, no goodbye
A cold glass of whiskey and suicide to numb the mind
It makes me gag thinking of change
Tears on the cake of some forgotten love, an old god
Clasping hands in mid prayer
Black spiky waves come jutting in and out
Like a breath, a lost soul wandering
Trying to answer those unanswered questions
I listen to the clouds, the man speaking
He puts his hands on my waist, bends me into shapes
The fantasy takes over me, conquers me like a nightmare
In the mouth of a ravished succubus
I try to escape it but it sweeps me up like a wave
Pulling me into the blue depths of insanity
Life, a plague, a beautiful disaster I\'ve fallen in love with
Nights of dreaming on an endless ride.