EthanMac

This Feeling

This feeling consumed me, It lingered in the back of my head, silently drifting around the edges of my mind murmuring, awaiting it’s attack. 

This feeling became my defense, drugging my emotions until they faded into grey and white leaving the brightness to the shadows.

 This feeling is my shell, unbreakable, and unbearable.

 This feeling is a void inside my chest, aching to be filled but afraid to be whole. 

This feeling is a burden. It feels as if my limbs became stone and my mind became a haze. It\'s a feeling of awareness without motivation. 

 

This feeling screams at confrontation

 Its claws dug into my thoughts, scraping them under a heavy blanket making them unable to be reached. It’s hissing being heard for miles but no one around me can hear it. It’s as though I’m being suffocated by these thoughts. 

Its voice reassuring but aching in my ears.

This feeling fills me with heaviness, it’s as if I cannot escape this weight on my chest.