Lost in the thoughts in my head
Thoughts that I\'m better off dead
I try with everything to fight back
Hours and days of my life is off track
Arguing with myself that I want to live
But feeling like I have nothing to give
Wasted life in a cold world
Feeling like I did when I was a lil girl
Why does it have to be this way
Why does my anger control what I say
I\'m a mess trying to hold my piece together
But then I wonder what would be better
To never feel love or care or fear
To know death is always near
Does it make me value life or live it recklessly
I can\'t even tell u what I honestly believe
Lost in the voices lost in the empty days
What happened what did I do what did I say
I feel there\'s no coming back from this
This monster you witness
A mess of disarray
I know I\'ll never be okay
One day I\'ll learn to heal
This is just how I feel
Lyn Dejesus 06/08/2021