transprodigalson

My own worst enemy

I hate my body,

and the way I act, 

I hate that I hate myself, 

so thank you, mom and dad,

for teaching me what self-loathing is,

all at the ripe age of 10.

 

Sometimes when I wake up,

I want to wake up dead, 

so I don\'t have to be me, 

so I can leave my body,

I\'d do better ghostly- 

rather than humanly.

 

If there\'s ever a time-

one where I don\'t hate my body,

a day where I can feel okay eating, 

then please remind me- 

remind me to send my parents a \"thank you\". 

 

I\'ll never stop,

I\'ll never learn how,

it\'s a man vs man situation,

but it\'s me vs me,

and there\'ll be no winners,

because we\'ll both be dead.