Am I turning into you
Someone who quits
Who let’s others down
Who is always the victim
You were supposed to teach me how to be a women
How to be strong
How to be independent
How to be happy
instead you showed me what not to do
You showed me how to run away from family
How to flee from responsibility
And how to cheat
Yet now I’m following your footsteps
I feel sad
I feel worthless
I feel stupid
Medication controls my personality
It controls my life just like it controls yours
I crave attention from men that I shouldn’t
Which isn’t a surprise
I watched you give your body to so many men who weren’t my father
But somehow you were always forgiven
You are manipulative and easy to love
I just want to be taken care of
Just like you always get to
You get coddled
But I can’t be you
I don’t want to be you
Why am I turning into you