In the darkness of night
I awake with a dreadful fright
From within the depths of me I tried
You had given up and lied
And heaviness from your smite
Caused me to lose the light
Knowing things would never be alright.
And all the missing of our dreams
Leaves me with internal screams
Now I see nothing is what it seems
I spent my days creating loving scenes
Knowing all along it was wrong
Beliefs created kept me strong
Yet you and I were singing a different song.
Never to give as I gave you
My adoration was so bold and true
This missing breaks me up in two
What can I do?
Everyday I wish you well
Though I am living in this hell
Forever hoping you will come to me
So we can put behind this misery
Truth be known this can never be.
Harmony lived not within these walls
I knew catastrophe would befall
As emptiness became my friend
To you, my love I always send
For I forgive your deep pretence
And feelings of ambivalence.
Forever I adore you from afar
And if there is a glimmer
Should I leave the door ajar
Maybe you’ll come running for another start
It would be such a foolish heart.