You may have died 17 years ago today
But I\'ve always had a selfish wish
To keep you alive
You may have been ready to go
The expiration date given to by your sickness
Had been outlived by your will to survive
Just long enough to see your baby turn a year old
But we were not ready to let you go
17 years later I am clinging onto your existence
Or rather the empty space it left behind
You were somebody\'s husband
Somebody\'s father
Somebody\'s son-in-law
Somebody\'s brother-in-law
You were somebody
That lost your human form far too young
Some days are a battle
If fate was right to take you away
Because so many things have happened
Good or bad
As a result of your death
Or if fate was wrong
Because it robbed three young children and a young wife of her husband
Robbed a young man of his good health, mobility, and future
How is that the right thing to have happened?
How can you explain to a little girl, that all along
Her father was supposed to die just 5 days short of her second Christmas?
Leaving her to spend the next 17 years
Without her father who fought longer than he was meant to,
just for her
What words can make sense of that?
Do they exist out there?
.t.b.