Sometimes i wonder
What we would\'ve been if i tried
If i had tried harder
Do you think we would\'ve still ended up this way
So brokenhearted and crestfallen
It seems as though a chronic illness
Where no matter how much it healed
It would always come back
Relentless pushing and fighting
Both of us unwilling to let go
Of the last string of hope
But as we grasp and dangle in the air on that dainty string
Reality cut it for us
Life is bleak without you
And i dilapidated into something i couldn\'t recognise
It was exhausting to continue on
The fervent desire to start over again
Raided my mind every night
And i’m sorry my love
For what i did to myself
I hope you can understand that
I was desperate to feel something
Other than the pain and thoughts of you
Don’t blame yourself for what i did
It wasn\'t your fault
It will never be your fault.