Truth be told I truly don\'t know where to begin...?
It\'s deep, it\'s bad & it\'s dam right ugly...
And has a funny way of knocking me for six, because I know this I can fix...
No joke, No lie...
I don\'t even know why I bother to try...
My head remains in a constant spin...
Wondering once again what did I do for all this yet again to begin...?
Even though it happens more than twice a year...
It starts so lovely, warm & kind...
Doesn\'t last for more than six months at a time...
I should get the pre-warning & hints before the actual drop me out time...
Tick tock, tick tock goes that clock...
Its count down time...
When me jaimeleigh is dropped like a bomb for tenth or more time...
I don\'t have a clue where its all coming from...
They was my family so I just cracked on...
Even though it was me they were doing wrong...
Maybe that comes from that I never did belong with the mum & dad who had me...
I would have been better if my family came from a family factory...
Instead of the family tree...
That obviously had no branch for me...
In my early years I did truly believe something was seriously wired wrong in me...
It was my fault that I didn\'t belong in this family factory...
Every other family I saw was close & tight...
Imprinted like a pack of wolves would be...
I imagined a family should be...
But something was seriously missing in mine or me...
I just knew as I grew that I didn\'t belong within this family who had created me out of love apparently...
With that being said I felt anything but warm & fuzzy...
I was shown the front door as soon as my feet touched the floor...
And nothing much has changed since then...
I\'ve dropped time & time again with in this so called family tree...
So I knew I\'d learn someday so them bridges I did burn so for me there could be no return...
Because No longer did I yearn to be apart of this using family tree that didn\'t want me...
I grew a tree of my own... That\'s my life... That\'s my family factory...