I stare -
At the cracks in the ceiling, at the slowly peeling wallpaper, at the carpeted floor with stains -
I cannot focus on reading or tv or anything
There is no \"point of interest\" to me, everything seems pointless in this moment.
My emotions have been pushed away
I cannot feel anything
Yet, I am trying so hard to keep the tears in
And I don\'t even know why I want to cry
I just want to let myself loose
And feel something good.