As I sit here laying in my bed, all I can do is think about how lonely I am in my head.
I don\'t smile as often as I use too,I just walk around in deep thought is all I can do.
Will I ever find happiness or will it find me?How much longer I have to wait just to see?
How can two people live together and not say a word,if these walls could talk even it would say this is absurd.
Why can\'t love be more simplier than this, it shouldn\'t be difficult when so much is admiss.
I want someone who will love me despite of my flaws,is that too much to ask for when I always give my all?
I\'m tired of the hurt and pain I feel inside, but no one notices because to the world I smile, that\'s how I hide.
I feel I have no oxygen I\'m gasping for air, going thru this alone its not right its not fair.
But God loves me and sees me for me,and I have to keep faith that the future husband he has for me will actually be meant to be.