Insecurity and brokenness covered with a smile,
sitting in the middle of the room,
silently staring at the life that happens around of her,
She’s kind and lost,
listening to the conversations,
able to feel everything or nothing at all
and she knows that both is to much for her.
You might ask yourself,
what’s going on in her mind,
when she’s talking to much,
or randomly cries.
People tell her how strong she is,
but that’s something she can’t see,
caus she knows she breaks down regularly.
A lost soul, without any passion,
doing nothing for her future but she doesn’t has depression,
she’s just scared of not living her life correctly,
so she decided to not live it at all.
She covers her pain with meaningless jokes,
and falls in love to quick,
only because someone gives her a bit of attention,
which makes her feel like she’s worth it.
She’s her biggest fan, supporter, hater and enemy at ones,
building herself up and tearing herself down,
so she won’t get forward in life
and she stands alone.
She’s tired, mostly of herself
and the little voice in her head that tells her what to do,
but every time she manages to stop herself from doing it,
so she just gets mad,
mostly in the mixture of being sad.
Every time she’s happy,
she asks herself how long is it gonna last,
and with that question the feeling passed.
She’s trying to love herself,
but she makes it hard,
because she isn’t talented or even smart.
I hope, one day she can achieve something
and finds her way.
I hope she will be okay,
but till then I will just say,
that even tho it seems like she’s in peace,
it’s the emptiness that you see,
that’s why she sits alone and doesn’t
talk,
she’s just another person with a broken heart.
A.M.K