This feeling of loneliness,
It’s coming out of nowhere.
I don’t know if it’s from losing my baby,
Or if it’s my depression surfacing once again.
My heart feels so empty and cold,
Even though I know that I am loved.
It’s like I don’t know where I stand in this world,
And I just feel so lost and confused.
Confused about my life and my feelings,
Confused about where I go from here and how I’m supposed to move on from this.
Something is holding me back from being happy,
And I don’t know what it is.
I’m destroying myself with all this self pity,
But I can’t help it and I can’t stop.
I just wanted to be able to hold my baby,
And give it all the love it deserves.
I just wanted to see the look in my husbands eyes when he sees our beautiful baby for the first time.
But I will wait as long as it takes for that to happen…