I pick my nails and the skin around them until blood covers it
I chew on the inside of my mouth until it makes a gap
I run my fingers through my hair and pull slightly
I bang my body into an object,
All as hidden means of unnoticed self harm.
At first,
I thought it was nothing
But now I understand.
My parents would notice if I overdosed
Or if I cut
Or committed any physical changing self harm acts;
So, I went to the unnoticed.
I make blood flow and blame it on being nervous or banging into something accidentally
And at this point,
Nobody asks me about any of it anymore
But the reality crashes down on me,
I am still finding ways to harm myself without anyone knowing.