SheWasTheSun

Shuffle

My ex self 

is an ex 

just as much as you are.

 

I don\'t know her anymore.

I can picture her, 

but she\'s fuzzy around the edges.

 

I have this big mix of memories with her

and most of them are sad

but not all.

 

Most days

 I can leave her alone 

in that dark corner of my mind 

with you 

where she belongs.

 

But on the other days 

a song 

a smell 

a gas station coffee 

reminds me of her existence 

and I\'m in her arms again 

or she\'s in mine.

 

I don\'t put my Spotify on shuffle anymore.