jaimeleigh

Sadness... Madness...

I love you... Truly I do... It might not be the same for you...?  I feel abandoned by you... I should be well use to the feelings of not wanting me near...  Not loved or respected by you at all...  & emotions of being used & disrespected I\'m going though day after month after year... I cant actually remember the last time I felt I mattered to you, in any shape way or form... I cant remember weekends in bed, the love-making... The giving & the taking... The caring & the sharing... The joking, & the laughter... Wanting to be near & dear for here ever after... There\'s no us, there\'s no we... There\'s no solidarity...  There\'s no unity... There\'s no loyalty...  I think its time to move on from you & I...? There\'s nothing left for me no more...  Its time to say goodbye &shut the front door there\'s nothing in it for me being with you...  I\'m miserable like I never knew was possible... I\'m telling you... You haven\'t done anything to change what I already knew... It\'s something in all honestly I didn\'t want to be true...  I thought we had a future I thought I had everything with you... Its sadness & its madness that you didn\'t think that way too...