I’m obsessed with suicide cases in our society. Japan was a country with many suicides. Since April 2020, when the pandemic became known to the public in Japan, a lot of celebrity suicides have been reported.
The first one that shocked me was Japanese actress Yuiko Takeuchi. She passed away suddenly, leaving behind her children. Another recent case was Sayaka Kanda. She also committed suicide suddenly and for unknown reasons.
Yeah, maybe I know their reasons, Empty sat on a wall, Empty had a great fall. All the king\'s horses and all the king\'s men couldn’t put Empty together again. The nothing say; come, come, come. Same rightnow. That\'s why I\'m writing this.
Looking back, many people have passed away. My grandparents, the master of my favorite jazz bar, 80 years old woman at my favorite coffee shop; we called “mom”, my artist friends; Juliana Yassin, Lee Wen from Singapore and Mariana Picart from Uruguay. John Giorno, a respected poet, I met him twice, also passed away in 2019.
There are as many losses as people I met, and maybe I can\'t expect to meet new people to make up for it.
It’s cold, so I turn on the stove, but the windows are fogged up white and I can’t see out. Early morning, maybe the sky is gray, I think. I like this time of day.
A little black thing among the snow; crying weep, weep, in notes of woe!
I\'m not interested in Napoléon Bonaparte, who killed millions and became a hero, I\'m more interested in Raskolnikov, who only one old woman murder makes a villain.
Isn\'t killing when anyone is cornered a compensatory act for killing his/herself?
The nothing say; come, come, come. Someone that would go to sea for pleasure, would go to hell for a pastime.