I\'m trying my best to remain calm & in control...
But my thoughts & feelings are on a high, like a wild fire struck in a maze...
Everything just all a blaze...
I don\'t know if I can truly let it all go...?
I dont think I can & then suddenly I know I can\'t...
That\'s when my mess gets extra messy & slippery places no longer need my control...
Oil & water spots will be my plots...
I\'ll fall so hard & lose what I\'ve gained...
Walking on my lonely road once again, because truth be told its easier than facing my pain...
But harder each time to come back from...
I don\'t wanna do this again & again...
So I need to really know if I really can let this betrayal from you go & try to move on...
Its knocked me for six, you getting your kicks, treating me like dirt so you could fuck & flirt...
I\'d like to believe I\'m older, wiser, matured a little & stronger from the addict that was once weak so to speak...
But the fact will always remain that addict & me have exactly the same name...
Getting though everyday is a bonus for my sobriety...
This you knew, this you see, but still felt the need to belittle & betray me...
Please god grant me serenity...