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Am I really a poet?

Am I really a poet if I don’t feel anymore?

If I flew up in the clear grey sky

and have been flying there aimlessly for seven full moons.

If words don’t escape my mouth

and my mind has fallen silent;

If sun has packed their bags and left its palace

giving an example to impressionable humans.

 

Am I really a poet if I sit in front of a computer,

candle crying tears on my dried skin,

stars whispering in my ears to pack in

when I can’t seem to cut myself deep enough

to bleed words that knit themselves into the screen,

and build a mirror for others to look into,

point their finger and say “shit, that’s so you”.

 

Am I really a poet if emotion is a language of the soul

and I need him to teach me how to speak it;

If I have tried to belong my whole life

and the only thing I have truly tied with
 
is the winter floor, I have melted into
 
asking cracks in the ceiling foolish questions like-
 
Am I really a poet?