This is my breaking point.
Our long anticipation is finally over,
The tears are no longer deliberate
They’ve grown old on our saggy bucket faces
The only one looking up now - is gone.
Silence hugs each one of us
With a firm embrace so eerie yet so soothing
When all other elements are against you,
The only comfort comes from the things not hungry to kill.
There lies an open box,
So long and full of memories
All things fulfilled and left undone
All lie within the longitude of this worldly box -
The vastness is almost unbearable
An enormous ship rolling in the waves of
Shed tears, rolling away from the sphere
Making its way to the pier – which is far beyond reach.
My grandmother
Grief-stricken and in her 80s
Kneels before the sight of her own daughter
On her delicate old knees, she prays this last prayer.
Never,
In a million years,
Would I have thought I would see
My grandma in such a pitiful position.
So, there we were
Long anticipation finally over and HERE.
Dry faces, drought eyes, and the Sorrow that comes
To hunt each heart to shreds, HERE.
With no other way of expression
I stand before my mother
And sing. Sing my heart into 3 intimate pieces,
Taking in all that my eyes can behold, knowing it’ll be the last time.
Mom, you never changed, even now after death.
I see you in your natural hair color
And I know you never liked wigs; you’d always fuss their presence.
But in this Blonde you look more alive than ever
Your brown finery
And the pearls dangling from your ears -
Oh, you knew if you were going to go
You would make it an ornate occasion -
Not to mention the white jeweled necklace
Resting on your chest
With the Cross on the end hugging
Your soft hands atop your heart -
This isn’t the way I expected life to take you,
Nor take me,
But as the service eases its way to a closure
I begin to appreciate every aspect of life -
It was a good fight,
I’m so glad you were my warrior inspiration.
So, I approach your calm face
And kiss you on your upper cheek
The coldness almost took me off guard,
But within that chill,
A spark of fire engulfed me
A transcendence of past, present, future.
I left that day
Emotion overloaded, but
Thick-skinned.
With a rejuvenated sense of existence.