I\'m in rehab,
learning to lose self-sabotaging addiction.
I\'ve been here for a few months now.
I\'ve relapsed a few times.
Tried to run away from healing a few times.
Until each pain-filled event led me back.
I\'ve learned how to fight cravings.
I go on runs to cleanse my body and soul.
I still have withdrawals.
Nights and mornings,
I shiver and rock back and forth.
sweating and letting tears pour out of my eyes.
I can\'t stop screaming.
But I hold myself through this.
knowing it will pass,
and I will be clean.
The day comes and I\'ve overcome the withdrawals.
But when it creeps up
yelling, \"you\'re all alone\"
I go and cleanse my body and soul.
I bathe in the wind,
and I am welcomed back home.
As the sky cries,
and the plants sweat and tremble,
mother earth lets me know I am no longer alone.
as I never was.
This is my retreat.
She sings to me and sends me small angels.
And I find that inside of myself, and outside of myself
I am free.