When I say the word family, what does it mean? Is it people who love you and make you feel seen? I ask you this question because I\'m not sure why, when it comes to my family, I had to say goodbye. They say it\'s in your DNA, your genes and your blood so why did she treat me badly, I never understood. My mum had some issues, I was always in her way, and the things that I went through, still haunt me to this day. Now my dad was my hero, he took me out of that home, and with him beside me, I was never alone. He gave me a new beginning, my life had restarted, but my world fell apart on the day that he parted. Nothing can prepare you, for the grief that you\'ll go through. I had nothing to live for and no one to turn to. On the day of his funeral, my mum made her entrance, I was angry and shocked, couldn\'t spit out a sentence. I wanted to help her, this was my chance to do right, but her presence was toxic, like a venomous snakebite. The drugs they have won, her hearts no longer beating. I\'m completely on my own and that feelings defeating. So I ask you again, what does family really mean? Is it people who love you and make you feel seen?