Growing up we joked a lot
We joked about being sad
we joked about having anxiety
we joked about depression
and we still do
but it\'s different now
because we were clueless back then
and if I had to read the words I am writing now
when I was younger
I would\'ve thought it was a joke
And that it was a call for attention
which is why it\'s so hard to ask for help
because even I would laugh at myself
And we joked some more
about being \"empty inside\"
And we laughed like it was the funniest thing ever
because it seemed ridiculous that someone could actually be \"empty inside\"
And then we were
And we still are
And it\'s not funny anymore
It was never funny
But we laughed
And we still laugh
But this time
we laugh at the irony.