I never understood
Until this moment now
What I was worth
And so much how
It seemed and felt
I didn\'t matter much
All things conflicting
Words, actions and such.
I allowed them to change
How I felt about me
And this person now
I didn\'t use to be.
The way I was watched
Was enough to disturb
But felt that was wrong
So this feeling I curbed.
The feeling never left
I choked it down
Hoping it would leave
If it didn\'t I could drown.
Little did I know
That tolerating became
A slippery slope an
Animal I couldn\'t tame.
I know I\'m not perfect
My flaws are plenty
Surely though I\'m not
Completely empty
Of love and kindness
And integrity
I do have these qualities
I just couldn\'t see
Them in my reflection
The sight hard to swallow
Words, opinions, actions
Sent me to wallow
In misery of how
Myself I viewed
Til that day I thought
That this is askewed.
I will no longer take
All of the blame
This girl\'s getting back
Into her own lane.
I don\'t expect easy
I know I\'ll be sad
I\'m sure I\'ll break things
Being conflicted and mad.
Then one day I\'ll notice
That I\'m doing fine
Getting reacquainted
With me and the kind
Of person I used to be
Who loves with no break
This is not a weakness
Make no mistake.