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Suicidal Ideation March 30th, 2022 linkedin...

to mein kampf insync with mine body dysmorphia

After reading articles

published within April 4/11 2022

of The Nation
I challenged the efficacy

taking prescription medication

categorized as SSRIs
and/or SNRIs.

 

Unpleasant side effects
such as earth shaking dreams
and/or especially hefty weight gain
linkedin with former
comprising my daily cocktail
of approved prescription medication

courtesy nurse practitioner.

Deliberation about courting death rooted

throughout mine psyche

fueling sinister chortle

at least since bout with anorexia nervosa,
but... maybe ginned blood,
sans umbilical cord transfused in utero aortal,

though long since recovered, the intractable,
haunting specter, sans grim reaper

intertwining within every fiber of this mortal

rooted, grounded deep, and branched out
into each nook and cranny portal.

 

Said notion provoked,
when made painfully aware

youngest daughter (aged twenty three)
plagued with similar thoughts,
damn genetics did maliciously engineer


clutching telephone while
seated at edge of chair

did apologetically, despairingly,
grievously... did air

pestilential, penitential, plenipotential... scare

 

re: distraction and understandable fear,

she might unwittingly plunge
into hopeless abysmal despair
falling prey into irrevocable
deathly hallows lair,

 

though kudos for her
from me, this sole Harris heir
to communicate, (albeit
hesitantly) into mine ear

suddenly wishing thy


Shayna Punim to be near,
but residing (about three hour drive
southeast of Portland, Oregon)
with my kid sister, attentive to welfare,

a sibling whose persona


doth show tender loving care

and concern, this papa
felt reassured there
would be every action taken
with sixth sense to beware

 

lest progeny exhibits

pointedly obvious lurching career

dramatic slide in tandem
with Old Rotten Gotham
into behavioral sink

emergency measures sibling
immediately would commandeer,


hence somewhat relieved thee dear
beloved progeny receptive to hear,
this dada expressed his unconditional love,
and grateful psychological intervention
offspring boldly did declare

 

indicative professional help volunteer

really asserted necessary to stave off
how dice throw of fate unfair
to said lass, whose demise,
would abruptly kill this sonneteer!