Stephyy

FOR MY BRAVE JOJO

For my brave Jojo…

I can see you are in trouble
And I am scared to ask what’s wrong
But all I want is to save you
From what I can see is going on

I think ‘what if I can’t help you’
Or ‘What if I make things worse’
But deep down it doesn’t matter
Because all I want is for this not to get worse

F

You know I’ll want to fix this
And You know sure as hell I would try
You might feel like I don’t get it
But I’m here to prove to you why

I see you in the mornings
afternoons
And days gone by
And each time I see you slipping just a little bit more to die

No one should make You feel that
And no one has the right
Your hurting Bcos of another human
And you seem to have lost your fight

He has stripped you of your self worth
Your courage and your strength
Your identity of who you think you are
And made you think to these sick extents

Going through trauma once
Is hard enough on its own
But now it’s come up again
I know this makes it worse

Take me to your pain my girl
Lead me the way I ask
Let me share it with you this time
And I’ll then be by your side

You are tip toeing through your days now
A careful ballet you may say
Just to avoid the conflict
That you no that he may play

You don’t need to be scared now
I will help your wings to grow
Grow back bigger and stronger
And only then I can let you go

Let you go to thrive in life
Just like you deserve
The best and biggest person
With out anything left in tow

Nothing to hold you back
From being who you are
The person we know and love best
The Jojo that you always are

I ask you if you are okay
And as always you reply…
‘I’m fine and I always will Be’
But I know this is a big lie

I’ve watched this develop over years
Much to my own disgust
But I’ve sat back and let you do
What you say you must

I have said the odd comment to you
Over this long time
But never really wanted
To overstep the line

It has really been so painful
Watching my best truly special friend
Be hurt by someone nasty
And be treated to this extent

Last time I wasn’t there
To protect you from all this
But two years ago when we met
I promised you just this…

I promised I wouldn’t let you
Go through this alone again
I promised I would get you help
And make sure I could be that friend

That friend you said you didn’t have
Back then when this all started
The friend you didn’t no you needed
UnTill our special time started

Just know I’m here for you now
And I know that doesn’t mean much
But you don’t have to do this alone now
And you don’t have to shiver at just a touch

I see you go round in cycles of love and pure hate
I see you be pulled in backwards
And I see you sit and wait

Wait for it to pass
Or wait for it to end
Wait for an excuse to try and justify
All of this again

You say you love him dearly
But sometimes love just isn’t enough
I think deep down you know
That actually you just loved who he First was

who he was at the beginning
The ‘honeymooning’ part
The things and amazing feelings
that you remember from the past

But sadly my precious Jojo
I have to tell you this
Sadly people change
And sometimes it’s not all bliss

Sometimes it’s in their nature
Their genes and their ways of life
But sometimes it’s much deeper
Deep deep down inside

They pull you in very slowly
So slow you won’t even think
They are using and abusing you
And telling you how to think

Just bcos he doesn’t hit you
Or touch you in a a bad way
Doesn’t mean the awful things
He will say are ever okay

Think back to all those times that all he utters is pure shit
Nothing nice or encouraging
But just a hit hit and a hit

Again not a hit that’s physical
But a emotional one at least
One that scars your heart for ever
Not just a bruise, punch or a pinch

These actions scar for longer
They will not fade as soon as the rest
But baby we can get you
To a better place to rest

I will make it my main challenge
My mission if you will
To make you happy once again
And I’ll wait and wait until

Until you find your strength again
Until you see your worth
Until you no longer need me
To hold your hand on this earth

He doesn’t have the right to control you
To curse at you or to be
Anything but positive to my favourite
My little sweet lady

I can’t sit back and watch this happen now
Now it’s out in the open again
I can’t watch my best friend get hurt like this
It’s something I just can’t seem to bare

Don’t regret telling me though baby
Be brave and strong and true
Bcos this is the new beginning of us finding the real YOU

Stephyy

April 2022