Sometimes I feel sad, but that\'s not so bad
Because a lot of the time, I just feel nothing
I feel empty of everything
Of emotion, of expression, of strength
I often compare it to drowning:
There is no escape, just accept the fate
Lungs are full, but of the wrong thing
Eyes only seeing endless blue
Time slows down as you fade away
There is no hope, but you don\'t care
Every second feels the lowest
But then in the next, you are lower still
These times are alright, I guess
Because nothing seems to matter anymore
But then you get scared
Scared of your lack of… everything
The fear makes you feel disappointed in yourself
The disappointment makes you sad
You are feeling again
That\'s good. Right?
All the emotions come back
They flood you
But with a breath of air
But you are still drowning
The air only makes you remember why drowning is bad
It makes it hurt again
But you can\'t help but give a little smile
Because, you remind yourself
That you are actually afraid to die
And you don\'t want to give in that easy
Sometimes I feel sad, but that\'s not so bad
Because at least it means I can still feel
Those breaths of air
Amid the drowning
Keep me alive
And remind me that someday
I will be pulled from the water
Air will come freely
Emotions will be constant reminders
Of a life worth living
Sadness
Happiness
Anger
Love
Fear
Hope
All there
The best hug I\'ve ever received
Simply because they are there
I know I can live
So I want to
For the emotions
And the people to share them with