My heart was absolutely breaking
Nothing sounded worse than losing
not just your life,
but your way of living in it
all in one fell swoop
because I never realized if I gave up my occupation,
my entire world would think I gave up on it
The anxiety was crippling
The depression was never ending
It was like continuously falling through a black hole
I always wondered how those people felt who spoke about their job
like it was their passion
I can\'t begin to imagine what it would be like to
love what you do
I can\'t remember what it feels like to be creative,
to help myself the way I helped others
It sounds insane but I swear
I am doing more for the man than I am doing for myself
I am doing more for the man than I am doing for myself
The man became before myself
The idea of giving yourself to society to breathe is insanity
And yet,
it\'s the foundation America prides itself on
- working 9-5