I hate how I feel
things that happen is so unreal
It went from a gentle warm touch
To being disappointed and a fuss.
to raising insecurities
then turning around and feeling a fist
The damage a relationship could cause
Wishing God would erase it all
How can this be?
Does he know what he means to me?
Do you really feel I deserve this?
Become a victim to a narcissist
I could never explain how much the relationship brought me so much pain
In the end, still wanting to love him again
Realizing everything that I was starting to hate
Was a man who was making the biggest mistake
Hours, days, weeks, months, and years
moments that were fill with tears
Feelings turned from what I once felt was love
Until I wish I didn\'t know him at all
I was filling myself with hate
Wishing I would walk away
Drinking alcohol
and doing drugs
just to numb the pain
so, I couldn\'t feel nothing at all
Having relations
just to ease the frustrations.
Is he in control of my life?
Or is my mind on a vacation?
I was losing myself
Wishing I could find someone to just help
Isn\'t there a therapist
That can help and despair a sis?
How many sessions would it take?
just to make the pain erase.
Erase from my memories
and realize he was just an enemy.