Am I alive
Was I always dead
Future spinning in my head
Day of release
Moment of pleasure
The weight of waiting for better
Worse is always on the way
Just another day
Tomorrow it will be gone
Back I’ll be
To a time I thought was done
Never over
Never ending
Promise is not a path to mending
It’s a falsity
A lie
It’s all just pretending
For now
And every now that feels forever
Hoping for less is a hopeless endeavor