jaimeleigh

Stop Talking... {23rd February 2022}

I\'m muttering, I\'m stuttering...

Somebody\'s got to say something surely if they care about me...?

It\'s becoming embarrassing keep banging my head against this wall...

No excuses that\'s what I said, yet here we are all up in my headache,

Because what\'s on my lungs is on my tongue,

Off goes my mouth on the do run, run...

Stuttering & muttering, not another word to be said...

I wish that could be true...

I swear if I say it out loud I\'ll put a gun to my head or maybe I should cut out my tongue instead...

Why do I keep repeating myself into cheating myself...?

I know I\'m not wrong...

So why am I not strong...?

Muttering & stuttering my self respect is suffering...

I\'m becoming a contradiction...

I don\'t like lying, yet here I am Muttering & stuttering Lying to myself...

I\'m trying to set my spirit free,

but instead I\'m becoming my own worst enemy with my stuttering & muttering continuously...

There\'s no follow through...

Empty words coming from me...

No action to be seen...

I\'m making myself a mockery, a fool that talks out of school...

Anger being my tool, no wonder I\'ve fell of my stool...

I cant rewind, I cant unsay what I\'ve already said...

Now that\'s all repeating in my head...

Muttering & stuttering...

I\'m gonna learn sign language most differently instead...

So I can leave my angry talk locked inside my head & act out instead...

No more stuttering & muttering out loud no more...

Yeah remember I\'ve said all this before...

Talking shit once more...