Something wasn\'t sitting right,
I was unsure of what to do.
I seemed to have the life I wanted
yet something was askew.
Drinking myself into oblivion
just to escape the pain.
Creating a series of disasters
that I had only myself to blame.
Yet I didn\'t want to stop
because that would be no fun.
I was addressing all my problems,
all except the biggest one.
Excitement for an evening;
all my problems were away
until it got to late o\'clock
and I had to face the next day.
Crippled with fear and
post inebriated anxiety, for one!
As I struggled to come to terms
with things I didn\'t remember I had done.
Myths rang through my ears;
Thoughts I still struggle to arrange:
Old habits die hard
and that
People never change.
Trusting my gut instinct,
realising what needed to be done...
I said goodbye to my old life
to build myself a new one.