My thoughts infect me
Poison in my head
Will my brain be better
Before I’m dead?
I claw at the thoughts
That keep me awake
I can’t stay afloat
I’ll drown in this lake
I seem put together
I’m falling apart
Should I follow my gut
Or follow my heart?
I try to control
That’s a fantasy dream.
They days that are bad
I just want to scream
I live with a monster
That monster is me
Before the bells toll
Will I ever be free?