de Suin

waking up is a struggle

waking up is a struggle.

alarm noises sound.

morning cold makes my bones toll 

like church bells on sunday.

my bedsheets weigh.

miles seem to amount

between my bed and nightstand.

my body supplants me.

alarm gets snoozed

by someone.

i promised myself i would wake up

the night before.

promises i can\'t carry on.

strong as the weakest. 

as confident as insecure.

suffering in my inabilities.