Sickboy

Perpetually hungry

I witness grub daily

Cook, chew, consume

My sonnet, before I vomit

Acidic bile, my Nicky Haley

Never just once in a while

It won\'t stay down like Fury

I wait and wait

For the round-the-clock grand jury

Sentences viscously handed down

With little to no warning

Judge, uncaring

 

Locked up, because

Retching isn\'t very fetching

You see

It\'s not death row but it might as well be

 

No body dysmorphic disorder here

Except of love to be heavier

No absolution, just prosecution

Teeth dissolve from the pollution

Appendages tormented

Form indented

Skin and bones, lament long lost stones

It\'s hard to stimulate concentration

Or even plain old motivation

The constant frustration brings no relaxation

 

Rivers of night sweats, the crib is soaking

Sleep forever fucking broken

Suicide watch - every half-hour

I\'d rather take the Jeffrey way out mate

Without a doubt, assisted

Instead, I change the bedsheet

Persistently

But it\'s nothing to do with heat

This nocturnal farce

The rashes, the itching

The scratching, the bitching

Crimson tides ooze from open lacerations

To Doctors morbid fascinations

 

My cranium lies submerged

Cradled at the bottom of the Mariana Trench

Life is not better down where it\'s wetter

Take it from me

 

Every tooth clenched

Overt pressure

In my brain the dreams of M.C. Escher

The bells ring out

Quasimodo yodelling in each ear

Other sounds become unclear

Like the vista from my peepers

 

 

I cannot see this ever blowing over

Jeepers fucking creepers

What a wonderful world

 

Just not mine