I can still picture cars zooming past
I remember wondering how long my fear would last
I remember coming home and trying to win
the fight going on inside of me,
I can still hear his laugh and I can still see their smiles
the things he did were vile
So I let it go for a while
I let it stack and pile
I let go, but deep down held it in
Until I felt it bubble up inside
I felt it churn and spin
I let it out , I could no longer hide
I was torn apart from the inside
I had a flashback -
a panic attack
It may have faded away ,
but the wound is the price I pay
The commotion died down , but I’m remembering now
The cars were zooming past
Everything happened so fast
His hands were travelling
While my mind was unravelling
I stood still
The air reeked of captivity and desperation
He was held captive by his temptation
There was no excuse but they all chalked it up to admiration
I was shunned and pressured for an explanation
Informed that it was my obligation to confine myself in isolation
I can still hear his laugh and I can still see their smiles
the things he did were vile
So I let it go for a while
I let it stack and pile
I had a flashback