just when it was safe for us to be
to wade through love\'s tears and suck on liquid orange
you cut me like a broken mirror in a yew tree
burned the image of nightfall into my wandering soul
watching me fall into flowing music
stupefied in clouds of acrimony I hallucinate
with a pill in my mouth, with a gun in my mouth
I can taste the cold steel on my tongue
I can feel the warmth of your arms draped over me
I remember you like nectar and riptides
like I remember the days of being halcyon and young
last month I was placid and I sat looking at the moon
looking at the moon and hoping you could see how much it hurts
the realisation that things will never be the way they were
that my wounded flesh surrendered to time
was like a wave crashing back to shore, like dew in my eyes
sunlight echoes in lightrooms
calling out for love, I pray for rain to wash away the pain
I pray for rain as transcendent as a sea
you picked me from the root and told me I would be okay
you filled me with love on a blue sky day
and as I faltered, you carried me like a deluge
burnished the sunspot
you said this love was to be passed on
you said this music was for the children that never loved
you insisted this kiss was for the songbirds
but you never said it like you mean it.