Pulling from the inside
Pulling from the outside
Crushing all around
Am I dirty?
Am I soiled?
Am I ruined?
Was it me?
Did I do it to myself?
No
Yes
Maybe.
Yes.
It was me
I asked for it
I wore the shirt
I drank the drinks.
I think I said yes
I\'m not sure
But its not his fault
I hate him
How dare he
Move on
From me
Does he not know what I did
What we did
What he did.
To me.
Does he not care?
Does he not know?
What am I to him?
What bearing do I have on his life?
I\'m a number
Just like the rest.
But less important
Because
Unlike the others
I was the shame
I am the shame
I am shame
I am disgusting
I am ruined
Who would want me
I don’t want me
Why would anyone else?
What do I do?
Nothing.
What did I do?
Fight?
Say no?
Yell?
Cry?
Scream?
Ask for more?
Maybe?
I don’t know.
This is on me
He isn’t affected
Am I overreacting?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?
Yes.
If it was an issue
If it was wrong
If it was unwanted
Unasked for
I would have done something
I would have.
I might have.
I didn’t.
How dare I
Ruin myself
My future
Unknowingly.
What happened?
I don’t know.
Was it me?
Yes
I wanted it
I asked for it
I live with it
It was me
It was me
It was my fault.
It was not
That dirty
Foul word
He didn’t do it to me
It was consensual.
Was it?
Yes.
Maybe.
Probably?
I think?
I don’t know.
I don’t remember;