I don’t know if you can see me
But if you can just know that I’m fighting
I just want to be set free
The pain I want to inflict on myself is exciting
It’s making my skin hot and sweaty just thinking about it
It makes me ache to feel the blade on my skin
Maybe I should feed into it make a little slit
But my mind keeps telling me not to give in
But the intrusive thoughts are too strong
I give in anyway and commit to the blade
I know it’s so wrong but in these lines I feel like I belong
Looking at my arms as if the lines were being displayed
It makes me go numb as I lay there like I’m going insane
But it’s better than feeling pain
The world feels like it slows
So in a deep sleep I go