you were a sunbeam in my unremitting darkness
you were unrelenting sanity
but I closed the shutters again
I don\'t know how to join you on that hill
I don\'t know if I ever will
comfortable with the familiar
even when the familiar tastes so bitter
won\'t play to win
so I won\'t lose, I won\'t ever lose
so tell me how the hell, darling, did I lose you?
you became the new meter, you know
against which I measured all who came after you