It always surprises me
How sneaky … healing is
You forget
You stop talking to imaginary versions of them
The paracetamol of Time and Space kicks in without you really noticing
You can\'t remember anymore
How much it could hurt
I guess you get used to it sucking
At first, you\'re surprised it\'s lasting so long
Wanting it to go away
Hating yourself for ruining everything
By not being ok
And then you give in
You have to eventually
And you become so accustomed to its presence
That you only notice when it\'s on its way out
I took the paracetamol
I gave myself Space and Time
And I lay on my bed
Bunched up Covers (of conversations cried through) disrupt my rest
But I flatten them out enough
And I distract myself
Podcasts and Poetry and Talking it out
Till the drugs kick in