tallisman

Crying out for hope

She’s listening, I can see

Lost inside her mind

Thoughts that should be free

Turn to fears that bind

Circling around like eagles

Looking for their prey

Thoughts that inveigle

Her memories this way

 

She listens to the voices

She knows them so well

They make her pick her choices

From a menu written in hell

The stories that they tell her

Have no base in truth

But seem real enough to infer

She’s guilty without proof

 

She carries that guilt within

Hides it from her friends

Admitting it would be something

She scared would never end

She apologises for all that’s wrong

Though she’s not at fault

Shes trying to just get along

While her emotions somersault

 

She questions her perceptions

On every conversation

Scared of deceptions

And seeking affirmation

She is crying out for hope

But cannot understand

Shes balanced on a tightrope

With nowhere safe to land

 

And in the quiet of the night

The voices always call

She cannot fight or flight

Or hide from it at all

She losers her sense of reason

Cannot see through the mists

It’s always a winter season

When depression exists