i don’t want college to end
not because i’m having the time of my life
i’m not
it just means that something has to change
i’d rather flunk the same three classes over again than have to take the next step.
i’d rather have the same professor say i have too high hopes than have to take the next step.
i’d rather be judged by my roommate for staying in bed than have to take the next step.
i’d rather face the same disappointed stares from my parents than have to take the next step.
i’d rather stay stuck in the past than have to take the next step.
i’d rather do anything than have to take the next step.
maybe i can feel like i’m living at some point.
please
just pause.