Do you remember my first day of school?
So many kids roaming the streets, the weather cool
But i was cold and trembling and i cried a lot that day
Yet i put on a brave smile and i went there anyway
Were you proud of me?
When i was small and fearless, not threatened by love
When my mind was not darkened and i believed in God
When i had a whole kingdom built from water and sand
When i didn\'t mind the falls and I\'d always stand back up
Were you proud of me?
When i had dreams to be great and i worked so hard
Although teachers and classmates told me I\'m not good enough
I was a timid kid but i tried my best to be strong
Yet your shellfish hands always expected more and more
Weren\'t you proud of me?
When my sister would go out because her worth was proven
I\'d stay home and study cause i was a weaker student
She had her fun and better marks and she would always win
I had sleepless nights and questions and no friends to play with
Were you proud of me?
Are you proud of me now that i skip my classes and stare with bloodshot eyes?
Are you proud of me for surviving a big fall though it determined the whole fight?
Are you proud now that the substance abuse is my shield and every day i throw up?
Now that time has scorched my kingdom and destroyed my castles of sand?
Are you proud now that I\'ve given up on your approval and I\'m sick
Are you proud of me for fighting this sickness though I\'m weak?
And when one day i die a lonely grandma in front of an old TV
Tell me, after everything is done, will you be proud of me?
Are you proud of me?
You should be proud of me!
When i get up I\'ll find my worth and scream it harder
For now remember every line that i write father