If I have trauma
It’s probably due to me
I made choices
Looking after only me
I wanted fun
I wanted love
I wanted freedom
And all kinds of other things
The only thing I didn’t want
Was to take responsibility
If I could blame you
I wouldn’t have to worry
If I was the victim
Someone would surely protect me
If I let you know
All the things they did to me
Then you would soon forget my fault
And replace it quick with sympathy
“It’s my mom
It’s my dad
It’s the way that they were raising me
It’s the culture
It’s the laws
It’s the way they educated me
It was tv
And the internet
And all the bullies that I ever met
Could be my diagnosis
Or just media hypnosis
The lack of healthy foods
And all the gmo
Maybe those who won’t wear masks
When they leave their home
How about now
Do you see how it’s your fault
I’m not a better me
My lack of motivation
and everything I do
Is an involuntary reaction
To every thing you do…”
Except it’s not
I’m a human
I make choices every day
Some of them are not brilliant
The consequences I must take
But I don’t have to live
Buried under trauma
Obsessed with never taking blame
And slowly working through the shame
And I will take responsibility
For every choice I make
I’ll live my life
And learn to be happy
Not be smothered under all the weight
Of being a hopeless victim
So I’ll say it again
And I’m telling you I mean it
If I have trauma
It’s all my fault
Believe it
Because I’ve chosen not to set it down
Ive never walked away
I’ve never chosen to leave it
I have never let it let me go
So I could be free from it
Be careful what you pick and choose
To be the thing that identifies you
Because your trauma will gladly stay
It’s more loyal than me or you…
Unfortunately…