Today I heard someone say our thought’s control our feelings, and I a hundred percent agree , so in this moment of time I have the urge to destroy my human canvas . but I don’t understand why , just moments before I felt little emotional pain , therefore why so I want to recreate the purge right now. I know I cannot fully comprehend how my brain chooses to react to moments , and why it chooses to plague my mind with horrid thoughts and imagery . I just wish my exhausted body could have a moment to bliss and control , as I know I will never be still or silent but I do dream of a day I can ease or therefore control the pain my mind and body is being dragged through .
20/7/22